Quarantine Updates

Hello World,

I’ll tell you what my latest problem with writing is. Lately I’ve been exposed to a lot of Hindi and Urdu. I’ve never been so appreciative of the two languages before. Writing came a little easier when I used to think in English. Now I think in Hinglish. I tried to write in Hindi but I’m not confident enough. I tried to write in English but I started with namaste instead of hello world. So today I’ll just try to balance the two.

Aaj maine Love Aaj Kal 2 dekhi hai. Mujhe laga movie ka message deliver karne ke liye hadd se zyada or blown out of proportion storytelling use kiya gaya hai. I also feel story likhhe se pehele shayad conclusion pe aagaye, toh beech mein fillers daalne pade. Like you know, insight milne se pehele advert bana lena, aur phir usme insight zabardasti daalna? Something of that sort. Woh ad memorable nahi reheti, connect nahi karega aapse. Magar movie ki intention sahi thi so theek hai I’ll chill. Lockdown mein 2hrs 17mins ki engagement mili, thodi cringy he sahi.

Cyclone Amphan ke baad ghar mein WiFi connection mein thoda locha hogaya, abhi tak theek nahi hui. So I haven’t watched many films. You might know I had finished reading the entire Naruto series, till Shippūden in a span of 3 days (sorry eyes), which I kinda regret. Bohot jaldi khatam karke closure nahi milti. So my coping mechanism was reading fanfictions. I used to be embarrassed and never admitted to reading them. I’ve gone back to fanfictions. Guilty pleasure bolte hai but like, I’m not guilty. Mujhe alternate universe kaafi pasand hai. Kahin toh happy ending honi chahiye, hai na? 2020 ko dekh ke lagta nahi ki hume kuch happy milne wala hai, bas ending ki umeed kar sakte hai.

Iss Hinglish ki chakkar mein I might end up finding a new voice. That’d be cool too. Updates! I’m continuing my workout. I love staying at home and not doing anything. I still believe whatever happens, happens for good. I believe in the universe. I’m a little more spiritual than what I was yesteryear. I’m discovering spirituality, or maybe I’ll end up discovering the lack of it. My parents are good. I’m still short and my thighs need some toning. Breathe. Drink water. Sometimes I miss holding someone or getting held, to sleep. I miss tangled human legs and emotions. Sometimes I think I’m better off without them. Sometimes I think a lot, sometimes I think absolutely nothing at all. For my selfish reasons, I needed the lockdown.

Well that’s all from my end. If you need a friend to talk to, I’m all ears.
I’ll see you a next time.
Good night!

An Unwilling Chicken Ghoul

Hello World, 

I don’t feel so well. I think I’ve eaten too much. I have to ask for a ‘brb’, need some digestive medicines to help me.
Alright. Phew. 

I overate chicken today. There are people who survive on chicken, there are people who think of nothing but chicken – all the same. Then there’s me. I like chicken, I appreciate chicken, sometimes I might even love chicken but today was a ‘eat chicken out of control’ day and my stomach is not having it. So yesterday we went to our aunt’s for lunch. A couple of fish dishes and some red meat – eaten in a more than decent quantity, followed by desserts. I was  having a difficult time digesting it all so we had a light dinner (Side note: dinners are meant to be light, it doesn’t apply in most of India though). Then today happens. Chicken for breakfast, lunch, snacks and dinner. I want to throw up. All I have eaten is chicken today! A minute of silence for all the hens who had families and friends, but ended up in my stomach (do you think about it that way? Nuh, huh? You only think about yourself! (Sorry, meme reference)).
Apart from my over eating drive, I have picked up Tokyo Ghoul from where I had left it – that is Chapter 7. I completed the 51st chapter an hour back. That’s all my eyes can take for now. They’re straining, paining and are dry. I’ve of course, felt worse when I was greedily reading Naruto. A total of 700+ chapters in 3 days, was i a bookninja? (Not that I’m not proud of it or anything (Probably that only thing I’m proud of, for having been consistent and hard working.)) I won’t discuss Tokyo Ghoul right now ​because I haven’t read all of it and some of you might want to read it in future, so no spoilers. I’ve stumbled upon a few spoilers myself, I know the feels, my blog won’t be one of those.
My bulging stomach and my already inflated interest in Tokyo Ghoul grow even more as I type this. Well that’s all for now. I will get back again, hopefully very soon.
Á bientôt!