My friend and I were deciding on a movie to watch tonight and simultaneously scrolling through Facebook, when the cursor accidentally flew to the news section, where they reported ‘Linkin Park’s lead Chester Bennington dies at 41’ in bold. Everything went blank for a few seconds. I hoped, prayed and wished out loud for it to be a hoax. I didn’t, for one second believe it was true. I had hopes, Wikipedia didn’t confirm the God awful news. After a few minutes it happened. Wikipedia confirmed the date – 20.07.17, news started flowing, social media rang out notifications and it was all real. You’re no more.
I started listening to Linkin Park back in 2006, when I was changing channels on TV and accidentally came across Numb. I binge listened to all of LP’s tracks immediately. In 2007, I learnt to Numb and In the End by ear (no notes). I listened to both the songs so many times that they’ve become a part of who I am. I listened to What I’ve Done when my heart was breaking and all I could think of was “erasing myself”, somehow I didn’t, somehow listening to your songs made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I’ve heard Faint and the drum introduction was so badass, I had almost decided to learn to play drums so I could cover the song.
Linkin Park has saved me from myself. But was it really worth it especially when after such a long journey, you couldn’t be saved from yourself? Now it’s almost 3 in the morning. We decided to watch Chicago after Pulp Fiction, but I came back to my room, despaired after the first fifteen minutes of the movie. Now I’m watching one of my favourite Linkin Park concerts in Moscow, Russia 2011. I can see you singing, the crowd loves you and Shinoda performing In the End. I’ll never get to see you live, Chester. Linkin Park will never be the same. But maybe now you’ve found somewhere you belong. Before I sign off, I’d like to thank you for keeping me company, for talking through your songs, for being the heart of a community where anybody could fit in, for always being there and for saving a million others who were just as wrecked as I was. Good bye, legend. Rest in peace.