The Depth of Your Eyes

In these 21 years, I met lot of people
And talked to many, if not all.
I’ve heard a lot of songs,
About beautiful eyes and lashes long.
So every time I met someone new,
I tried to steal a glance, or maybe a few.
But those glances were so swift,
I could not understand what to make out of it.
I have to admit some eyes do make my heart skip a beat,
While a few others make me wonder if there’s an entire universe inside those colourful orbs.
Some eyes shine,
Others can stop time.
I could stare my mother’s eyes for as long as I wanted to,
I didn’t have to find myself an excuse and she didn’t seem to mind.
It was then that I was taken aback by the beauty of someone’s eyes,
They’re full or emotions and yet are mysterious,
They speak a million unspoken words;
Eyes see a lot of things – good, bad and ugly,
But it’s amazing to see how they remain unscathed by the world
Like they are ready to take in another day.

Way Past My Bedtime

​Hello world,
I have an 8am schedule for the morning, it’s almost 1:30am right now. I should hit bed, but what would life be if we only followed the “should be(s)”? So I guess I’ll write to you a little.  I was checking my blog’s stats today, I found out that a certain someone from each of these countries – Italy, Denmark, UK and the US, have read my posts. A huge shout out to them! You guys pumped up my fascination (that people from different parts of the world read my posts). Now I’m even more fascinated! 
Today I discovered a new channel on YouTube. It’s called “in love with a ghost”, the music is unlike anything I have heard before. A few tracks have already become my favorites. What’s even more intriguing is the name of the tracks. For example: “can i be your internet crush?”, “we’ve never met but can we have coffee or something?” and “sorry for not picking up your calls”. The tracks are calm and they give you a weird feeling of nostalgia. 
It’s yet again, another windy night. I feel like the oceans are calling me. A few months ago, my friend and I drove to the nearest beach, that would be approximately two hours from our college. We went in a winter afternoon, the sun showed no mercy but the blue stretches of the Bay of Bengal was so beautiful that none of us really minded the heat. We couldn’t however, stay there till night. I really wanted to. I dream of spending nights at beaches. 
It’s always so pleasant to write to you before bed. I feel like I have spoken to someone about my day without getting interrupted and to think that someone out there will be reading this – well, thank you for listening to me. Your views are the only goals in my sad life. 
That’s all for now, have a great day ahead.

Ja!

I had time today

​Hello world,
I have been attending my 8am classes without fail (#proudbackbencher). My classes start from 11 am tomorrow, it’s 2:05am right now. Guess I have a little time to write to you before hitting the bed. 

How’s it going out there? It’s surprisingly very windy at my end. The sky is not clear, blocks my view of the moon. I’m not fond of cloudy nights. There are only a few days when I get to see the moon from my window, even that is not going to happen now. I mentioned earlier in one of my posts, that the winds make you want to roam around the beaches at night. Imagine a pitch black sky and vast shimmering water. The sky and the ocean are so black that they look one. You’re walking around, barefoot in darkness, listening to the ocean and letting the wind push past you. Oh, how I wish to be free!

What else do I tell you? I guess I just wanted to share my (not a new) realisation – people change so fast. Sometimes you’ll have no idea what went wrong, but they’ve changed. So you’re the only who pretends to be themselves, but it doesn’t help. You cannot change them back. Then you wonder what went wrong for the rest of your life. 

I think my bed is calling me now, I feel a little feverish so this had to be short. I’ll get back soon as usual. Good night to everyone, in whichever corner of the world you are in. I’ll say this again – it fascinates me that someone from far, far away will read something that I’ve jotted down, half asleep, leaning on the wall beside my window. It’s such a great feeling!
That’s all for now.

Ja!

Don’t hate me for returning home late. Yes, this blog is home to me, mama.

Hello world,

I have accidentally deleted Colornote and didn’t have a proper back up. That’s right, I’m left with nothing. Today I was about to download Colornote again, when I came across Google Keep. This is a handy app but it’s not password protected, that’s kinda scary.

Well, how have you been? I have traveled to a new college for Springfest last month. We also celebrated my birthday there, in the middle of the streets. It was so much fun. Their campus reminded me of the school I went to during my +2 years. As much as I love their campus and everything about them, I’m somehow glad and grateful that I ended up in my college. Had I been in any place that reminded me of my +2 years, I would have tumbled and rolled down the spiral stairway of self destruction.

Apart from that, my GPA still sucks. We have our placement drive in about a few months time, and I’m not prepared mentally or physically for it. My resumé and CV is least impressive right now and I always manage to sound like anything, except professional. That’s not getting me anywhere. Talk about talent, never heard of that word before. Talk about skills, does rambling count?

I’ve also come across a number of poems. Here’s the thing about good poems (and all credits go to good poets) – they hit you right in the feels and make you want to write something tragically beautiful. When you do start to write, it’s only tragic and let’s not talk about beauty.

Guess that’s all for now. I do have so much to share, but I’m hardly disciplined these days. I barely finish my work and I barely care to improve myself. But then, I did write today. I guess I’m trying again. I personally feel that it is so difficult to care these days when you literally feel nothing and sleep all day. We need to change that.

See you in the next note, good night!

Ocean Eyes

Hey Snake,

Was clicking through Sheepy’s mixes when I heard Ocean Eyes. Needed to share the lyrics:

I’ve been watching you
For some time

Can’t stop staring at those oceans eyes

Burning cities and napalm skies

Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes

Your ocean eyes


No fair

You really know how to make me cry

When you gimme those ocean eyes

I’m scared

I’ve never fallen from quite this high

Falling into those ocean eyes

Your ocean eyes


I’ve been walking through a world gone blind

Can’t stop thinking of your diamond mind

Careful creature made friends with time

He left her lonely with a diamond mind

And those ocean eyes


No fair

You really know how to make me cry

When you gimme those ocean eyes

I’m scared

I’ve never fallen from quite this high

Falling into those ocean eyes

Your ocean eyes.

World, say hello to 2017

Hello world, 

Are you all partying right now? What is a New Year’s party even like? Loud music, final countdowns, dance and drinks? I’ve never been to one, would like to attend one some NYE. Did you have someone to kiss during the final countdown? Does the New Year kiss happen even now? Because I heard about it the first time when I was around 13 and it sounded (still does sound) pretty cool to me!

Also, I hope you all had the merriest Christmas with your loved ones. A minute of silence for Forever Alone, who has no loved ones. I went out with two of my cousins for drinks and dinner on 25th. One of them got terribly drunk and started questioning the waiter every time he walked up to our table. The poor guy was so scared, you could see the a “so scared” swimming in his tear ducts. When we went outside, he  started talking to the security guard and managed to scare him too. Imagine the security guard calling for security, then realising that he IS security!

New Year Resolutions. Okay so, I’m going to take my blanket off my head and also pull my hands outside to clap for every single person who actually sticks to his/her resolution. Believe me, coming out of your blanket isn’t easy so I’m throwing my respect at you all like confetti. 

My New Year’s resolution is most  importantly to be positive. I’m one of those people who plans everything right, then eventually does not follow because lazzzyyy. So I’ll be positive here about my New Year’s resolution to be positive. I’d  like to show some love and care towards my body by staying healthy. That means reduce smoking (if not stop entirely (that would be farfetched (keeping it real))). I’d also like 2017 to be a really productive year and I’ll work for it.

I guess that’s all. What are your plans?

Ja!